Just needing some love.... :(

I can barely type or think right now, Thank you all so much for all the love!!!! You all have no idea how much I appreciate every one of your words!!!!!

Awww.... I am sitting here bawling my eyes out when my youngest, 7 asks me why I am crying. I tell him its cuz I miss his sister. He gives me a hug, tells me its ok mom, its just like us missing poppa, but they are in heaven now, and they aren't hurting anymore. Really its ok momma. And I love you.'

And I thought I was crying before. I love my kiddos!!

Thank you all for letting me share!

hugs - I am awkward with this sort of thing, but I was tearing up reading this. I am sure your sugar skull would have been awsome, but there is a world outside of face painting. all I can say is to grab your other girl and give her twice as much love, some for her and some for her sister. and know in your heart that your little angel is watching you and loving you from afar, not just now but always.

I'm so sorry. (((((HUGS!!!)))) I have no words to say what I want, but I have tears in my eyes, and a pain in my heart for you. I can not imagine what you have gone through, or what you are going though. All I can say is I am sorry for your loss.

Skidzz wrote:
Awww.... I am sitting here bawling my eyes out when my youngest, 7 asks me why I am crying. I tell him its cuz I miss his sister. He gives me a hug, tells me its ok mom, its just like us missing poppa, but they are in heaven now, and they aren't hurting anymore. Really its ok momma. And I love you.'

kids are the best and they speak the truth. Especially here. HUGS to you and yours!

What a sad story and also a beautiful portrait of a mother's love. Never compare your life to anyone else. Your experiences are unique and real and genuine, and no one has any business telling you how to grieve or when to stop. God loves you, and your little girl is waiting for you and loving you too. God bless you and your family!

such a sad sad story. so sorry to hear of your loss. as a twin myself i feel that bond with my sister and i know that if death were to separate us we would find each other again in the afterlife. the bond is simply that strong. just know that your little angel is waiting in heaven for you and that she would want you to be happy as you want her to be happy. big hugs to you and your family

There is no way to heal that pain.
You learn to live with the hole in your soul.
My heart cries for you.
I think it is important to grieve every year for the ones close to you that you may have lost.
And appreciate the ones you still hold close.

oh my gosh, that made me tear up! So sorry for your loss, I'm sure you're little angel is always with you.

I am so, so sorry.

I watched my sister hold her newborn son while he drew his few breaths, then die. I had my own precious three month old son at the time. It's always especially hard when there is another child to measure the missing one's days and years by. Every year on his birth/death day I give her a new charm for her bracelet that signifies something the boys would be doing together that year. She has a soccer ball, a piano, a silver french fry package, and a few others.
I know how hard it is, so thank you for sharing with us. Most people just don't get it. Hugs to you and your family.

Thank you all for being so incredibly supportive!!!! This has been a really had month for me, and all the love from you all makes it liveable!!

I also think that losing my dad last year, and that I was the one that was trying to resusitate him, like I did the first time my daughter stopped breathing, and that we will be coming up on the year anniversary of that also that it has me with a gigantic hole in my heart. Even though I am truly happy for them not suffering anymore I am just lost without them. I have gotten to the point that I can look at my the twin, Brittany, and not see my twin that passed, Phyllicha. But this month I just keep seeing her. And I think that my daughter has a hole in her heart too.... and I am truly afraid what she will try to fill that hole with, you know... She is a good kid, but she is lost right now, and I am stuck wondering if that is why. She is getting to be really rebellious, and defiant, and I don't know how to handle it. I think that seeing her like this, and missing her twin so much is just pushing my stress level and stuff really far.

But I will thank you all again for letting me post all of this.